A few simple truths about Mariesa

This morning, as I have perused the web, I started to find inspiration for my next blog.  I don't want everyday to be just about my workout or why I haven't worked out... so what do I write about?

A few simple truths.

1 - I have no idea how much weight I have lost?  I hate the scale.  I refuse to get on the scale.  The scale is just a number.  This challenges me when people know I am working out and say, "Oh how much weight have you lost?"  No clue.  One friend who knows my feelings on the scale will instead say, "Wow you really must be dropping the weight."  To this I can reply, "Thank you and I hope so."  I could religiously step on the scale and watch the numbers rise and fall but really what does that tell me about who I am?  What does that number identify about Mariesa Robbins anymore than I am overweight.  My BMI is too high.  You know what?  I am a fairly active, healthy obese person by my doctor's standards.  Nothing is more frustrating than going through the yearly physical and hearing that all my numbers are healthy and within check and I am a healthy obese person.  Gee thanks.  So, I just don't get on a scale.

2 - I have never been a depressed fat person.  I realize that being overweight can be very trying on a person.  I realize that buying the next pant size up can be traumatizing.  The images in the magazines don't affect me, truthfully.  I am who I am.  I do not let much in this world stop me.  I am bold.  I realize there are those who will look at me like a lazy sloth, but they obviously have not walked a mile in my shoes and obviously have no idea what they are talking about.

3 - I am not on a diet.  There again, if I said I was on a diet, then that means I am trying to lose weight.  The truth is, I am making healthy choices.  I like food.  I LOVE bacon.  I don't like processed food but sometimes I have to eat that choice because of time.  I am a youth director and that job comes with pizza.  I wish it didn't.  I would love to find a healthy alternative, but guess what?  It is cheap.  My budget is cheap.  My pastor was shocked to find out that I actually really do not even like pizza.  Yesterday we celebrated my husband's birthday with cake and I ate a big piece.  (Now, it was lowfat icecream and lowfat coolwhip but the calories were there).

Now, I do have to say that I have dieted.  I have lost with Weight Watchers in high school.  I lost with Body for Life and really loved that program.  I use a lot of the principles from that program in understanding portion sizes.  I have read many good and bad things about the Paleo Diet and Atkins and thousands of other ones.  All in all, they are not for me.  I try to just eat healthy and realize that sometimes I will have a Krispy Kreme donut and the world will not end.  

4.  My go to after workout food is a giant pickle for leg cramps and either celery and peanut butter or frozen banana blended with peanut butter to make "ice cream."  My other favorite after workout food is Kale Chips.  If I have Kale in the house or remember to pick it up at the store, I will eat a whole head of Kale made into these FABULOUS chips.  They are loaded with good vitamins and I salt them because I crave salt after a hard workout.  

5.  I am an emotional eater.  BRING ON THE CHIPS AND HOT SAUCE.  There, I said it.  Stress comes and goes.  It is what it is.  Do I let that get me down?  No.  I do realize that my next workout is probably going to suck if I have had chips and hot sauce and emotional eating is not a daily or even weekly occurence.  It happens.

There are many more truths about Mariesa.  These are the straight forward ones.


Yesterday's workout was good -
Weight training -- need some more ab and arm exercises to really feel the burn
Stair Climber of Doom -- I did 10 minutes and 22 flights of stairs.  Woohoo