When things get back to normal...

It is hard to believe that it has been almost a month since my last blog.  This month has been busy, focused, unfocused, chaotic, driven... and a whole lots more all rolled into one.

When our lives get turned upside down or don't go the way we planned, we find ourselves saying, "When things get back to normal..."  "When life slows down...."  "When I got caught up ... "

I have found myself saying these things alot through my life.  This made me start thinking, what is normal?  I think everyone has their own definition of normal.  Normal is pretty much a subjective thing.

I look back at the last year as an interesting view of normal.  One year ago I started blogging.  (just about a year ago from today).  One year ago I started really focusing on some spiritual places in my life that needed work.  The last year, like most of the other years of my life, have involved ups, downs, ins, outs, sickness health, richer, poorer.  I would say it has been a pretty "normal" year.  So why do I keep saying, "When things get back to normal..."

This also started me thinking about my comfort zone.  I like when all things fall into place.  Don't we all?  I like when everything works out.  That is normal, right?  We don't like for our boats to be rocked.  But they are.  Time and time again, when we think we have it all together it all falls apart.  When we are travelling safely and securely on one path, that path all of a sudden splits off into seven.

Through all of this, I have decided that being "normal" is not worth it.  If we had normal, would we recognize it?  If we caught up, would we not just have a whole other pile of work to catch up on?  When we do find ourselves in a place of comfort, is that not usually when we realize we are not comfortable anymore?

So today I pray for my uncomfortable, not normal, crazy mixed up self that I am.  I am not normal and I don't really think I want to be.

:)