Thursday, May 6, 2010

What is God telling you?

First off, this once a week blogging is really not working for me.  Blogging had become part of my routine -- a time each day when I could collect my thoughts and pray and reflect.  Once a week is kinda pointless.  That is all I have to say about that.

God talks to us, all the time.  I firmly believe that.  God is not saying, "Mariesa, go eat eggs for breakfast."  I don't think that is it.  I have said it several times, that we take our relationship with God for granted.  Most of the time, we have no idea we are doing this. Most of the time we are so wrapped up in ourselves and our microcosms of the world, that even though God is right there nudging us in one direction or the other, we don't listen or go that way.

The past 4 weeks of my life have been crazy.  The last 4 weeks of my prayer life have been non existent.  That really sucks.  It sucks that I am not making time for my relationship with God.  That being said, this week I have found myself in silence alot more.  I have decisions looming that need to be made and I want to make the right decision.  These are not ginormous and life changing.  They are little decisions to make my life run more efficiently.  These are little decisions that need to be made.

I think Moses had it pretty easy (tongue in  cheek, I realize).  Moses had God talking to him through a burning bush.  When my mother was getting ready to retire from teaching, she was trying to figure out if it was the right time.  At some point, I said, "Well, God will let you know if it is the right decision."  That is a great statement, but it also needs to be followed with, "and be ready to accept what God is telling you."

Without getting into too much detail about my choice I need to make, I am trying to decide whether I need to change a relationship I have.  This is a person who has led me to some pretty important truths about myself and understandings that I have been lead to because of this relationship.  This person's situation has changed which leads me to have to do a lot of "working around."  I don't do that well.  That leads to a spontaneity that my brain cannot wrap around.  As flexible as my schedule often is, quick changes don't usually work.  That frustrates me.

So, here is where that God talking to me steps in.  All this changed about 4 weeks ago.  This person's situation changed for me to work around 4 weeks ago.  Is that God trying to tell me something.  My scheduled time with this changed last week.  The time shifted and then I had an urgent house appointment that got in the way.  Is that God telling me something?

Hearing God, developing that understanding relationship with God, making the steps and choices that God leads me to are not always easy.  There is not an easy answer and that makes things difficult.

So, what do I do?  Pray... and hear the words I told my mother, "Well, God will let you know if it is the right decision and be ready to accept what God is telling you."


AMEN

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