Sunday, October 18, 2009

The stones in my life that lead to a better me

I get to church VERY early Sunday mornings. Lots of times it is because of tasks that need to be completed but often, it is the quiet that I need before the busyness starts.

I have a little "altar" in my office. It has my devotion books, a candle, a pretty cloth, one of my violins and a bowl of stones. Youth and Family Institute calls these "Milestones." More than that though, these are stones I have collected from places... stones that hold some meaning. This morning's quiet time focused on these stones.

I knew the ones I had selected and tossed them down. Emptying my brain of all the noise is still challenging. I think it always will be. But, just listening to the computer fan and the other little noises my office has, I started focusing on the stones.

I had selected - Faith. Faith is something I believe strongly in. Faith helps me to understand my purpose in the world. My faith in God, my faith in others, but mostly my faith in myself.

The mountaintop experiences and the deep valley lows. Wow there has been alot of those. More than I care to admit. Often I find that in the deepest darkest moments, I find God most of all. In my pain and sorrow of the world, God is there.

The new beginnings stone - this prayer and meditation journey I am on is still very new to me. It is still new to me that I need the silence. I am a person who always has noise and always has movement in life. I don't sit still well. My ADD makes me want to jump from task to task to wherever life is leading at that moment. But this newfound silence makes me just want to sit and listen and yearn for whatever God is doing in my life. I find it crazy at times, but I like it. I like the feeling of releasing all the stuff in my life to God.

And the peace stone - this relaxation and comfort I have wanted for so long is AMAZING. It is nice to be able to not focus on the stress and craziness and "be still." I have not found the peace yet in every moment because there will always be the noise. BUT, I have found comfort and solace in God and understanding already of this person that I did not totally know existed. and all I can say is WOW.

John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

AMEN

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